Tuesday, March 20, 2012

Warm

Ridiculous. My first post in March is March 20th. What is happening to me.

So. God is breaking me down. Over and over. I knew He called us like dust... but I didn't expect to feel like dust while I'm still living. I guess that's what happens when God tries to mold us while we're still cold and hard as stone. We become dust.

What must I do to become clay... what must I do...

Well. I can't say I'm not enjoying this time in my life. I truly am. I do feel I've never experienced anything quite like this, though.

I love adventures. I love the unknown unfolding like a red carpet, my own anticipatory breath like the applause as I walk down.

It's a feeling. It's a feeling so strong, it is a sight to behold.

I don't even really know what I should say right now. I'm sort of in a moment of stand still. It feels kind of nice.

The weather is turning warmer, like it's finally gotten tired of fighting the earth as it turns.

What's funny is I can relate.

This is a warm moment in my heart.

I don't know that my heart was ever as frigid as Winter weather. But I do know that this moment is warm.

It's still. It's calm.

Life goes on. God is good. He is near. He is all I need, and all I will ever need.

I'm so thankful for the people in my life. I'm so thankful for my friends and my family, who stick by me through everything. I'm so thankful for Caleb. The man who reminds me constantly how brilliant God's love is. I love Caleb. God is so good to me. Too good.

I'm just going to bask in this moment. It's a nice one. And so adieu.