Sunday, June 17, 2012

Begun

My goal for this year was to try to write more blogs than I had been. I eventually surrendered to the fact that this is just a season in my life where my writing habits fluctuate. It's weird for me, to be sure.

I am done the school year. Last week was tough, and I would not like to experience it again, though it was precious, as well.

This week I look forward to so many things: TONS of Evelia practices. I'm excited though.

We're playing at Creation in a week and a half. That's slightly frightening.

But extremely exciting.

I am rounding up a lot of loose ends before I go to St. Louis for a mini vacation with Caleb and his family. I cannot wait. I feel like I'm just holding my breath waiting to see him again... Gosh I miss that man.

Many a thing happening this week. The adventure of Summer 2012 has begun. Let it be.

Thursday, June 14, 2012

Last

As I sit here at my desk... wearing the same green sweater I wore on the first day of school, I am kind of still. Today is not the first day, but the last day of school.

I am overwhelmed.

I am. I cannot help but recall the motions I went through this time last year, and remembering a million memories and moments of this past school year all at once. All at the same exact moment. I am overwhelmed.

The school is abuzz with mommys and children running around. Happy hellos and sometimes tearful hugs.

This day is absurd.

It is completely bizarre and I'm not sure exactly how I feel about it.

What gets me most, what is causing this day to be even more emotional, and monumental is the fact that I will not be teaching as a teacher next year.

This year  taught second grade, and next year I am only teaching Latin and music lessons and doing private tutoring.

In addition to the changes I anticipate in the next year, this is another change tossed into the mix.

So this last day of school is indeed an ending of sorts.

Caleb schemed with my mom and grandma and wrote a letter and sent it to my mom. My grandma placed the letter and an apple upon Caleb's request on my desk for this morning.

That's what started my teary-eyed vision.

I've never been so encouraged by someone. Caleb is my hero.

I am speechless today, for so many reasons.

Wednesday, June 13, 2012

Kill

Come on. It kills me. He is flawless. If cuteness could kill... I am dead.

Tuesday, June 12, 2012

Long

You know what it amazing? Being with Caleb.

You know what is unbearable, and gets worse and not better with practice?

Leaving him.

The distance is long.

That's all I got.